The Class.

thanks for telling me about it cuimin.

the suckiest ending of all time.

damn you director! or whoever cancelled season two.

im in love with lizzy caplan

Brad; Muse

Labels: class, cuimin, ending, sucky, the, the class

These are two gundam 00 AMV's i have created. they are only previews, so expect full versions to be coming out soon! Enjoy!

Gundam 00 AMV (1)



Gundam 00 AMV (2)



as your fingers wound around my heart
your eyes pulled me deeper into the abyss
"i cannot possibly join with an angel,
when i have sold my soul to the devil"
- Lelouch

Brad; Muse

Labels: 00, amv, gundam, gundam 00

this post is dedicated to all my friends.

Song: Friends by Stephanie

Note: read the coloured english translaltions, and take note especially of the words i have bolded or italicised. all the english lyrics mean a lot to me. Enjoy.

onaji egao shiteta
sonna bokura mo ikunen mo kasanesugite
surechigau keshiki wo
ukeirerarezu ni mogaiteru


While showing the same smile,
just like that, a number of years have passed
while the sceneries pass by,
we are struggling to accept it


muda na PURAIDO sutesari
kono sekai ni yasashisa wo


abandoning this useless pride,
and hoping for gentleness in this world


I Gotta Say
yuuki wo misetsukete mo tsuyogatte mo
hitori dewa ikirarenai
ano hi no yakusoku nara
kokoro no fukaku ni nokotteiru yo ima demo


I gotta say
Even though I show all my courage and strength,
I can’t live alone
As the promise from that day
still remains deep in my heart, even until now


wakarete mata deai
arata na michi ni hikari mitsuke arukidasu
umarete kara zutto
kurikaesu koto de tsunagatteku


Meeting again after parting
I found light in a newfound path, and walk on
Ever since I was born,
it happens again and again, strung together

itsunoma ni kimi to boku mo
sorezore mirai wo te ni shite


And between pauses of time, both of us
started building our own future


I Gotta Say
tooku hanareteite mo, aenakute mo
tsuyoi kizuna wa aru kara
“yume ga kanaimasu youni”
kokoro no soko kara inotteiru yo
We’re friends forever


I gotta say
Even if we’re far apart, and unable to meet
There is strong bond between us
“May the dreams come true,”
Pray for me from the bottom of your heart
We’re friends forever


mata au koto wo chikai
yubikiri shite
bokura wa arukidashita ne
mienai ikisaki e to
mayoinagara demo
susundeiru yo

itsudemo…


Pledging to meet again,
We did a pinky promise
before setting out
towards the unseen destination
Even when full of doubt,
we still march on

Always…


kawariyuku kisetsu to
toki no naka
natsukashii MELODIES
otona ni natte mo
iroase wa shinai yo
bokutachi no PRECIOUS MEMORIES


In the midst of these changing seasons
and flow of time,
the reminiscent melodies remain
Even when I’ve become an adult,
it won’t fade:
Our precious memories


I Gotta Say
yuuki wo misetsukete mo tsuyogatte mo
hitori dewa ikirarenai
ano hi no yakusoku nara
kokoro no fukaku ni nokotteiru yo


I gotta say
Even though you show all your courage and strength,
You can’t live alone
As the promise from that day
still remains deep in my heart, even until now


As life goes on…
wasurecha ikenai kara, Yeah
Don’t let it go…
kono hiroi daichi to nakama-tachi no koto


As life goes on…
I won’t forget, yeah
Don’t let it go…
About this vast earth, and about those friends

"and about those friends"

the lyrics

are poems enough.

Brad; Muse

Labels: dedication, friends, stephanie

right i'm so sorry that i haven't been posting much. but so much stuff has been going on and im seriously "shagged" as my sister would dearly put it. so ill start with graduation rehearsals.

Graduation Rehearsals (day 1)

It took them three hours to queue us up. how lousy can management GET these days. then they ensued to drag us to the corridors behind the hall, and it was like a major traffic jam. i couldn't see much because i was at the back, ROW 19. by the way, shanisse was sitting on my right, then daryl, rei chern, zi jian, si han, and jin hien was sitting on my left in that order starting with daryl.

so we filed into the hall, and we started the whole graduation routine starting with the torchbearers passing on whatever crap they had to the p5 torchbearers. on a side note: one of the torchbearers was miao ling. so then it was our turn to go up and receive whatever prizes or certs we got. then it was my turn to go up. and well, i got jeered at, like LOUDLY. 6A started it, and almost everybody else followed. at that moment i was exactly looking at the entire p6 cohort with extreme distate, because id expect those immature shameless brats to bring shame upon themselves. however, i was looking for the TEACHERS, who were honestly, just standing there.

so is that what nan hua comes to? yeah it is, i was a little hurt. at that point. so i went down, and returned valiantly back to my seat. unconcerned, at that point. later when we were dismissed. why the F*CK was everybody joking about me being jeered? every F*CKING person i saw was like laughing about it. WHAT THE BLOODY F*CK?!

so yeah. at that point i was quite pissed. and extremely sad. i mean, cant i even feel a sense of belonging sometimes? and all those times in nan hua, false joy? suddenly everything i saw in terms of my time in nan hua became empty. useless. fake. the rest of the day passed by in a blurr.

Graduation Rehearsals (day 2)

same thing as yesterday, except well, guess what? i went up, i got jeered, THEN i got yelled at by ms francis wong, "you deserve to be boo-ed" oh well thank you for your OH SO KIND ENCOURAGEMENT. at this point, everything kind of made a weird kind of sense you know? 6A started it, 6A was ms francis wong's class, and the teachers "announcement" to stop jeering didnt do a damn thing. see the links?

well after she shouted "just get out of here" of course i bloody hell got the hell out of there. i was about to run off to get my bag and just exit the damn school when mrs goh caught me by the arm, and told me 'not to go in there just yet' HELL NO, i was NOT going back in there. but because of what she said, i guess i DIDNT run out of the school. but i ran to some deserted corner in the school, and guess what i did? i closed my eyes, and i breathed. trying to find, silence. thats the worse part about the world these days, you can never truly find, absolute silence.

so when i was properly cooled down i returned to the hall. there mrs goh needed to talk to me. so she brought me to the back of the hall, and started explaining the situation. you cannot measure how profoundly grateful i was to her at that moment, she was understanding and empathetic. so at that moment you know, i was so tired. i mean it. i was tired of being closed. i was tired of putting on a facade. i was tired of kidding both myself and other people, i was tired of putting on a mask. i was tired of doing all those things and more. so i just told her things i wouldn't normally tell her.

i was so afraid of being hurt, so afraid of being changed, affected. that i had closed myself off. well there are reasons beyond that but, those are some of them. and now maybe i can truly help those like me. ostracized, boycotted, outsiders. so closed off, but with so much potential.

so after that i went for rehearsals, but not grad rehearsals, skit rehearsals. i was in charge of all the sounds, and i had to say the "announcement" and the "disclaimer" at the start of the skit. well, when we were finishing up, xin hui msged me to ask me if i was alright. i think that was awfully nice of her, and i appreciated it.

right so, i seriously considered not going to graduation at all. what was the point? avoid all the embarrassment and get my awards delivered in a box. i got the Yang Tau Chor Sturdy n Studious award as well as the Prism Award for robotics by the way. but in the end, i talked to some people, and because of their encouragement, i went to graduation. not for myself, i decided, but for them.

Graduation Day

I came to school at like 11, for the graduation skit rehearsals. apparently there was something scrwed up with the projection system after i short circuited the laptop, but i fixed it so it was alright. then we ran through the entire thing twice. and i got scolded by the dancers because apparently i "screwed something up" and "no wonder i was jeered" at that point i was like, yknow what? screw this. so because it was already quite late i ran back to the 6K classroom to get changed and fixed up.

so we had to button up the top of our shirt, which is like at the collar. and because my shirt's collar was agonizingly tight, i was like half choking on my shirt. then they tied this cute litte blue and red ribbong under my collar, with a bow at the front. and i have no idea how i looked but... twas weird that was all i could say. oh and after that we were all going quite high because of the way some of us looked and the way MDM TEO looked, with that gold dress n all. so i went around snapping pictures of random people with my phone, INCLUDING mdm teo, and cheng lao shi.

then we went to line up in our rows and i continued snapping pictures of people, including mr lim when we were going into the hall. so we marched into the hall with a solemn expression on all our faces, and then they started giving long speeches in both english and mandarin. and i was RESTLESS okay. then finally they started giving out the awards. so i decided that every 6JK person who went up there i would clap loudly for. and it was weird cos daryl, reichern and sometimes shanisse followed, then we were the only ones clapping in the entire hall! but when miao ling went up, i also clapped, very very loudly. but NO ONE ELSE DID... shanisse daryl and reichern are chao evil, they did that on purpose, so i was the only idiot down there clapping like crazy. lol but i dont mind, this is graduation isnt it?

when it was my turn to go up, i was extremely nervous! i mean, not that i have stage fright, but if i get jeered, what would my parents say yeah? but then i thought of someone, and then i thought of my friends, and i reminded myself that i was NOT going up for myself, but for them. so i walked, straight toward the guest of honor. by the way, my picture looked horrible but i didnt exactly care at that moment. i received the prize, said thank you, bowed, and got off the stage. the principal was kind enough to tell me i had alot of "supporters". by the way, i haven't yet said if i had gotten jeered or not, have i? well i DID get jeered. but i was strangely happy after it, because my friends cheered LOUDER. and i could hear the voices above everyone elses. so you rock guys! *grins*

well after that i went to the back to collect my awards n everything, then passed them to my parents, and went backstage to prepare for the skit. before that i went to take a picture with mdm may lee! then backstage i took pictures with li lao shi, mr kum, and mrs goh! yeah and then we did the skit, and it went great, better than usual in fact. so we were like estatic and like laughing here n there. then i went to class to get my bag, and i FORGOT MY NAPFA GOLD CERT which i left on the table, ah nvm, thurs go back and take.

then i met deirdre which passed me this cute little card from all my AV seniors and it was so sweet can! ahhh. i love all of them lol.

but the tea party was the most fun of all! yeah i drank like four cups of fruit punch, then they kept releasing balloons into the sky with messages written on them, i took a picture of a bunch of balloons floating into the sky!! well then the girls were sitting in one corner and playing truth or dare. then jin yang and i were like finding MARCUS GOH, shanisse's crush. so in the end, the guys were pushing marcus toward shanisse, and the girls were pushing shanisse toward marcus goh!

then marcus was like HARDLY RESISTING AT ALL. and at first we just wanted marcus to hug shanisse, or put an arm around her. then marcus' mum was like, oh lemme take a picture of you all LOL. so she did, then we started pushing them together again, cept jin yang tied a rope around shanisse and we started dragging the both of them together, then miao ling was there yelling sth about being together forever in chinese. so in the end we got the both of them together, then we made both of them say "i do" and they did! so i shouted valiantly, "i now pronounce you man and wife! but they SEPERATED. so evil.

so jin yang started tying a rope around BOTH OF THEM, hahaha so evil. then i tightened it and tied a deadknot, so they couldnt escape. then miao ling, jin yang, si han and the rest including me were laughing like siao. then suddenly somebody shouted out, "lets push them to the floor!" so we did, and the funny part is like marcus landed on top of shanisse, and it was so funny! and everybody was laughing like siao. then shanisse made the mistake of standing up while marcus was still on the floor. his head was at like shanisse's BUTT! zomg so funny, we nearly collasped with laugher, seriously.

then some evil genius thought of doing the same thing to me and miao ling. like wtf? so they dragged me to the floor and like forced me to kneel before miao ling. and the girls dragged miao ling over and like forced her to say "i do" we said it, in unison, "i do NOT" so in the end we didnt get tied up, thankfully oh god. i wouldnt know what i would do if i were tied up with miao ling.

then after that we were like forcing marcus to kiss shanisse? and his lips came THIS CLOSE to shanisse cheek or lips? but it was a "misfire" so hillarious. gosh we were seriously like dying of laughter by then. then shanisse was all flustered, and miao ling's aunt was like video taping the WHOLE THING, miao ling! i want that tape! but unfortunately, miao ling had to go back to her aunt's place, cos her parents were having some cruise of superstar virgo or something. and the fun ended. then we had to go back cos they started switching off the floodlights lol.

well, it was an awesomely fun night. and ill miss you all okay! the WHOLE of 6JK, ill miss your antics and your quarrels and everything. and all the teachers! we shall have a class reunion next year together with the teachers yes? and special mention (ill miss you especially) to: Gideon, who has been a loyal friend. Mrs Goh, a really understanding teacher, Ashburn, a fun loving person, Limin, a great friend and an awesome personality! Cheng Lao Shi, for all her encouragement, and of course, Miao Ling, for just being herself. ill miss you all! and you guys rock!

6JK'08 Forever.

in times past, your distant memories
fading, but still ever present
blurred, but still as prominent
ill never forget.

Brad; Muse

Labels: graduation

ah so this is quiz limin tagged me to do.


1) Do you have secrets?
everybody has secrets

2) How do you explain love?
love is when you realise your just a half of the whole. love is patient, love is kind, love is never jealous. love is not a because, but a despite, and love is so much more, havent i said enough?

3) Do you enjoy going to school?
yes, if im in a good mood, no if im in a rebellious mood.

4) What would you do with a billion dollars?
Save about 20% of it. use another 10% of it to build churches and organise evangalistic missions. give 10% of it to my parents. donate 10% to assorted charities. then 50% investment

5) Would you fall in love with your best friend?
it depends who is my bestfriend, and whether im gay or straight. and yeah, im straight.

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
why do they ask this so much. [limin's answer]
damn good question. my answer is, "the most coveted words are not, someone loves me, but, i love you."


7) List out your current 10 favourite songs.
i cant bother, their all either instrumentals or japanese songs. or korean.

8) If the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
leave her alone. if i truly loved that person then i would want what was best for her, and what would make her happy, which is her attachment.

9) Is there anything which has made you extremely happy?
no. but fufillment would.

10) List the artists you listen to.
i cant bother!

11) How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
an artisian. artist, musician, writer. at the same time a part-time lawyer. also an evangalist. also searching for the truth of the world, and life.

12) What is currently the most important thing to you?
my world. the people around me.

13) What is the kind of person you think who tagged you is?
oh, limin. happy-go-lucky. slightly hyper. somewhat cute. understanding, to an extent, but even if she doesnt understand she TRIES which is more than i can say for some people. she's something special, but im not sure if she realises it herself *smiles*

14) Would you rather have a rich but ugly wife or poor but pretty wife?
i wouldnt choose a wife based on status nor looks.

15) What are your favourite colours?
white, black, and gold.

16) Would you give all in your relationship?
depends what kind of relationship it is.

17) If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i wouldnt do such a shallow thing.

18) Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
i can forgive, but i will never, forget.

19) Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
now? single, immaturity prevents me from being in a healthy relationship anyway. in 20 years time? definitely attached.

20) 5 ppl to tag
amanda
sonjia, IF YUORE EVEN READING TIHS
gideon (if he even has a blog)
cuimin
rosemarie

quote, Emily Dickinson

"Because i could not stop for Death,
He kindly stopped for me;
The carriage held but just ourselves
And immortality.

We slowly drove, he knew no haste,
And i had put away
My labor, and my leisure too,
For his civility.

We passed the school where children played,
Their lessons scarcely done;
We passed the fields of gazing grain,
we paased the setting sun.

We paused before a house that seemed
A swelling of the ground
The roof was scarcely visible,
The cornice but a mound.

Since then't is centuries; but each
Feels shorter than the day
I first surmised the horses' heads
Were toward eternity."

-Emily Dickinson

Brad; Muse

Labels: limin, quiz

fine limin ill post ill post! but uh, not about my daily life, not now at least. this is going to be a really short post because im leaving the hse in about 10 minutes for church camp! and i think its freaking diao because two days after my church camp is bintan camp, which makes it really tiring.

anyway ytd and today (morn) was floorball for guys and captainsball for girls. i, personally, am moderately good at floorball since i have experience in hockey. but the rest of the 6JK team SUCKED! really! they cant even receive a ball properly! but our defense is good so we scored 0-0. and the girls won captainsball, but i wanted to play!! too bad im not a girl. tut tut.

then after today's round of floorball, we went to the NUS (which is just opposite my house?!) physics workshop! then we saw some PREETYYY amazing science at work. and we got to take home a few interesting things. personally i like the sound wave thing, pretty awesome! and i like totally burned my finger in the liquid nitrogen. oh and the mag lev was cool too!

right okay dont msg me for the next three days because ill be at church camp, syonara! and uh, blog more later.

roses are red
violets are blue
but none of them
are as beautiful as you

Brad; Muse

Labels: camp, posts

right so its like 7 a.m and here i am posting about justin's outing which was yesterday (thurs) from 11am to 6pm. first of all ill list who went, and then what they were wearing.

Attendance(in no order of merit):
Me(Bradley)
Justin
Limin
Miao Ling
Xin Hui
Shi Yang
Harry
William
Mervin
Ashburn
Keeve
Gabriel
Ding Han

there are TWO categories in dress attire, to make it easier - Jeans and Others

Dress Attire:

Jeans

Miao Ling - Clothes: a pair of faded blue skinny jeans and a red and white striped T-shirt. Bag: black-pink billabong bag. Hair: Long, tied back. (i think it looks better UNtied though.)

Xin Hui - Clothes: dark blue jeans and a yellow top with ring bindings at the back. Bag: uh! cant remember. Hair: Short, hung loose, slightly curled

Limin - Clothes: slightly worn pair of jeans, darkblue-bluish. White top with olive green jacket. Bag: Red and beige Nike bag. Hair: Long and tied back.

Me(Bradley) - Clothes: worn pair of dark blue jeans, with faded knees. black ripcurl T-shirt, choker, and a white over-shirt. Bag: Black n Leather. Hair: all over the place, as usual.

Justin - Clothes: black jeans, or at least they looked like jeans. Orange singlet and a dark blue jacket. Bag: Sling bag. Hair: cropped short? the same larh!

ive decided to omit "Hair" in others because their all boys and it all looks the same! and "Bag" too cos i have no idea what some are carrying!

Others

Shi Yang - Red T-shirt and beige bermudas

Harry - lame puma T-shirt and bermudas (WHICH WERE TOO HIGH)

William - more or less followed his brother (above)

Mervin - Cargo pants with some T-shirt and a jacket

Ashburn - White shirt and black bermudas. still okay, but ah, the shirt is too long for you :P

Keeve - HE CAME IN HIS PAJAMAS. a blue T-shirt (PLAIN) and beige bermudas (looks like it was 10 years old)

Gabriel - Uh, T-shirt and Bermudas

Ding Han - some weird T-shirt with a face on it and bermudas!

=======================================================

okay now i can proceed to the actual outing. We met up at 11 am at the school gate, then we went to clementi MRT to meet gabriel and ashburn. Then we took a train to City Hall and walked to Marina Sq. Then we took like five minutes calling limin repeatedly and asking her, WHERE ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU?! but in the end we found her. So we went to the bowling alley and justin went to get us movie tickets.

GABRIEL was swinging his bowling ball onto OTHER lanes. Justin kept fooling around trying to kick the ball. Shi Yang nearly dislocated his fingers. Limin and Miao ling - first timers. so they did uh quite okay. but they need to improve their form though..... anw, i bowled for only like a coupla shots cos justin didnt want to bowl anymore. Strike, spare and spare *grins*

the movie was max payne. and if im correct heres how we sat in ROW Q -
Miao Ling. Xin Hui. Limin. Me(Bradley). Ashburn. Gabriel.

i think max payne was GROSSLY UNDERRATED. it had an ALMOST sex scene. like THIRTY people died. there was so much blood and gunfire. and they rated it PG! like wtf right? then the ending sucked too.

so we fooled around a bit and then we went arcade. the girls had TOTALLY nothing to do so they went shopping. and i was like =.= but they went anyway. and i didnt play anything i just like sat there and watched this coupla old geezers play pool. this one guy had this awesome round-the-bend trickshot and he like downed three in one shot. anyway they didnt want to play arcade after some time so i called Miao Ling, (i didnt have xin hui's number and limin didnt pick up her phone) and found out they were at precious thots.

so we went to precious thots, picked up the girls, went to the mrt JUST IN TIME to catch the rush hour crowd. it was SO CROWDED, i was standing TWO INCHES away from the pole, which btw like 15 people were grabbing. Miao Ling was lucky, she got off at RedHill. then xin hui got off somewhere. then after that this woman fell on me !!!! so i had no choice larh, i was like struggling to keep my balance and stop her from falling to the ground. =.= in the end we went justin's house, watched some soccer, some tennis, then i went home at about 7 p.m and promptly went to sleep

okay thats about it, blog more next time!

a flower floats lazily in the wind
each petal, hanging on dearly
as time drags on, they start to drop
one by one, and they fall to the ground
memories of distant past.

Brad; Muse

Labels: arcade, bowling, justin, max payne, movie, outing

I want you to take me away
to a place far far away today
I want you to evelop me with warm arms
more refreshing than a thousand alarms

-locked in your enternal embrace









Chapter 1

commonwealth poem
commonwealth essay

Name: Bradley, but you can call me Brad if you like
Gender: Male? Obviously.
Description: Nice, light brown hair with speckles of gold glinting in the sun, face an angular proportions of a superstar. I WISH. Typical Singaporean guy, maybe. Can be seen in T-shirt and Jeans. Sometimes shirt and jeans but what the heck.
Email Add: bradz_delta@hotmail.com


brushes
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designer
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blogskins

-NEW PHONE
-NEW SLING BAG
-NEW PENCIL CASE
-NEW WATER BOTTLE
-NEW WALLET
-and of course, her.

limin
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